One Month?!?!

So, there's just under a month until I see you. It's honestly kind of weird once I pull back the veil of excitement and anticipation. It's weird because I'm looking forward to this big reunion in a way - but it feels like I never left your side. I think every day about being held in your arms - yet I feel like I'm being held by you as I drift to sleep at night. All I can think about is looking into your eyes again - but I've been lost in your eyes since the day we met, and to think I've ever allowed myself to be set free is foolish.

I guess that's the irony of our distance-enhanced amour. What I miss the most - what I long for every day - has never truly left my soul. Of course, I miss the physical connection. I miss our hugs, I miss our kisses, I miss holding your hand, and resting my hand along your body. But what I love most of those moments are the feelings they give me. My heart swells to near eruption. My soul calms and feels balanced. My mind races, "Is she... oh... YESSS... she laid her hand on my ankle... THE PRETTIEST GIRL I KNOW LAID HER HAND ON MY ANKLE."

The feelings you instill in me are what I love the most; those affections are what make me fall in love with all over again, every day. Those feelings, though, have yet to leave my side in the past months and I know they won't fail me in the months to come. Your mere presence in my life gives me all the hope, joy, encouragement, and love I could ever need or even imagine.

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A friend of my family gave me a book several years back. The book follows the life of her brother Chris, a bohemian adventurer crossing the United States before meeting his final journey in Alaska. In her inscription, Carine implores me, in memory of her brother, to honor each day. I'm not one for mantra's; so, I always enjoyed her admonition, but never took it to heart.

After having you in my life for the time I have, those words have taken on a new importance. For every day that I am lucky enough to spend with you along my side - even from a seemingly infinite distance - I intend to honor each of those days. In doing so, I try to reflect even a fraction of what you give me back to you and the rest of the world.

I love you,Sam, I will be counting down each day, each minute, each moment, until I am back in your arms. Less than a month!

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